What is Life Going to be Like afterwards?
Your life will be completely changed beyond comprehension. Other non bereaved people will act in a totally different manner.
Your inner being is suffering in a way you may not be able to describe it to anyone.
That alone is scary to say the least.
I have tried counseling was good at the time, thereafter I found myself back to square one.
Avoidance by others will be normal, your lose the will to do things, you cannot focus, and some mornings you just say why do I bother to Live on. You do, only taking one day at at time.
The say time cures.
It gives you time to learn how to cope better.
If you feel something like above, do not worry, it is natural.
You are not alone.